I am afraid of the dark

4:23 am. Only about 7 minutes after having woken up for no reason at all. Only 7 minutes after laying in bed in fear because of what I cannot see in the darkness; rather, what I think I see in the darkness. It took me approximately 7 minutes to decide and then actually turn on the light.



Light does not flood into the darkness with the flip of a switch or turn of a knob; it is much more aggressive and consuming than that. Sitting in the dark and being attacked by shadows of fear is paralyzing – allowing for one reaction of sinking further into the darkness.

The light that comes on and comes in rushes to rescue from the dancing of the dark shadows creating false fears that feel so real the heart reacts in shock against the chest and the lungs betray their habit.

Light steps in bringing truth to the dark. But without the darkness, light is meaningless. But it is our choice to bring the light to the dark.

Such a sudden reminder of so much the Lord is and what Christians are called to be and to bring.


Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” (John 8:12)

You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.  Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house.  In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven. (Matthew 5:14)

I specifically love what Psalm 139 (7-12) says:

Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where shall I flee from your presence?

If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!

If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, 

even there your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.

If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,”

even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you.



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